It was a good, and horrible year at the same time for me.
For Christmas 2013 (not 2014) I got a PS3 with almost all of the COD games, so the first four months were pretty much just me playing COD and doing normal stuff.
May however was easily the most boring month next to September, literally absolutely nothing exciting or good happened
However, on exactly June 2nd, I downloaded pixel gun and got completely HOOKED on it.
Than later around mid-June, I joined the forums and met probably my best friends of 2014!!!! (
@TheRudeWolf,
@TheCakeIsALie,
@GoldMan27,
@RandomDash, etc)
And the rest of summer was just me playing pixel gun and having sleep-overs with friends.
Although once September hit: almost EVERYTHING started going down-hill for me. I started to just randomly realize exactly how pointless I really am, that my future will most likelybe just me living in a box on the streets, etc.
Than when October hit, I started being reminded of and having flashbacks of a (thankfully non-fatal) car crash that I was in back on Halloween 2013. Which kind of traumatized me so badly that to be honest, I still think about it even though it was over a year ago ;-;
And also around this time I was just getting so fed-up that I always had absolutely NO creativity, I just can NOT progress in learning a language no matter how hard I try, and I just have so much trouble learning things and memorizing them in general. That I started to have REALLY bad depression for months. So legitimately bad that around half of the time I either cried myself to sleep, or just laid in my bed thinking of everything bad that has happened in my life so far.
Although around Xmas time my depression was getting better, but I started to face a new problem: seemingly out of nowhere I would start to just randomly get angry or depressed for almost no reason. And the only thing that helped with these bipolar-ish breakdowns for me was caffeine. somehow whenever I have energy, I do not think about anything negative at all until it wore off. So it is pretty much an anti-depressant for me.
And no, I have NOT told my parents about my depression at all because no offense to them, but they are complete A-HOLES around 70% of the time. So more bad than good would happen.
I would type more, but I'm getting too tired and lazy right now to type. If you have really good advice about depression or just want to know more about my depression. Than please PM me or kik message me at "mrawesome9002"
I hope 2015 is better
